The Guardian columnist Orville Lloyd Douglas reveals in his latest piece that he hates being a Black man and that his skin color is his “personal prison.”

He writes: “I can honestly say I hate being a black male. Although black people like to wax poetic about loving their label I hate “being black”. I just don’t fit into a neat category of the stereotypical views people have of black men. In popular culture black men are recognized in three areas: sports, crime, and entertainment. I hate rap music, I hate most sports, and I like listening to rock music such as PJ Harvey, Morrissey, and Tracy Chapman. I have nothing in common with the archetypes about the black male.”

Clearly, Douglas is no stranger to self-hatred and internalized racism.

He is, after all, the same writer who said that he was “exhausted” and “bored” with race films, and that maybe he should give up his “black card” because he just doesn’t care about slavery anymore:

“I might have to turn in my black card,” Douglas wrote, “because I don’t care much about slavery. I’ve already watched the television series Roots, which I feel covered the subject matter extremely well. Of course, I understand slavery is an important part of any black person’s history, but dwelling on slavery is pathetic. It ended in North America over 100 years ago, yet since Django Unchained made over $400m last year, more slavery movies emerge.”

He continues his search for White validation in his latest piece:

Read excerpts below:

Honestly, who would want to be black? Who would want people to be terrified of you and not want to sit next to you on public transportation?

Who would want to have this dark skin, broad nose, large thick lips, and wake up in the morning being despised by the rest of the world?

A lot of the time I feel like my skin color is like my personal prison, something that I have no control over, for I am judged just because of the way I look.

Not discussing the issue doesn’t mean it is going to go away. In fact, by ignoring the issue, it simply lurks underneath the surface. I believe a dialogue about self hatred should be brought to the fore in the public sphere, so that some sort of healing and the development of true non-label based pride can occur.

Of course, I do not want to have these feelings, to have these dark thoughts about being a black man. However, I cannot deny that this is the way I feel. I don’t want to be ashamed of being a black man; I just want to be treated as an individual based on the content of my character, and not just based on the colour of my skin.

Though some writers actually agreed with Douglas’s piece about slavery in film (why, I don’t know), if his admitted self-hatred doesn’t make it clear that his critique had nothing to do with “exhaustion” and everything to do with seeking a pat on the head from his White contemporaries, then nothing will.

Read Douglas’ full column here.

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9 thoughts on “‘The Guardian’ Writer Explains Why He ‘Hates Being A Black Man’

  1. this is why we have taken it upon our selves to remove the curse of Noah….noah got drunk and exposed his self to his sons when he awoke embarrassed he cursed one of his sons 2 b black and the slaves of his brothers forever…thats what we do at House of Christ Temple Divine helping to lift this curse off my people Adam was a black man-Kain ws a black man so was Moses,Abraham,& st Peter, even the Christ Yehoshua was born black Man…ho Died for the sins of the world

  2. There are a lot of black men who don’t fit the stereotype and the libs can’t stand it. This guy does fit in with other black men… There are some really great guys like Alfonso Rachel, Ben Carson, Allen West these guys don’t fit neatly into the liberal box and they are the better for it.

  3. Wah…nobody wants to sit next to me because I’m black… Nobody wants to sit next to any man on the train because men take up too much space, harass women and start fights.

  4. As an African American male 37yrs old in American I cant imagine saying self hating things about my culture we have issues like any other race in America……I understand this man’s pain we will never know what he is feeling inside…….

  5. I don’t really see it like this guy sees it. I’m not a black man, but it seems to me that black men are the most versatile men on the planet these days. It is common to see a black man involved in virtually every undertaking, save a klan rally. Black men are known and popular in country music and rock, not just rap. Black men are able to secure a more diverse acting portfolio than black women. Black men have excelled black women when it comes to marrying outside of their race. This means that black men are being held back less and less by prejudices and oppressive labels and treatment. At the least, being a black man nowadays is better than being a black women. Even so, I don’t hate being a black woman. I hate ignorance.

  6. SayWhat on said:

    He is a sad troubled man. He hates the one thing he can’t change. Even if he put a bullet in his head and end his pain his death certificate will still say he was a black man. His happiness is defined by being accepted by white people. Sad.

  7. blacknote on said:

    Each day I wake up to work in a place where dignity, self-respect, integrity, and maturity in black men are discredited. Why? Because if your dignity, self-respect, integrity, & maturity does not make white people feel superior and a growing number of immature, superficial black women feel sexy, you become something they feel the need to defend themselves against. The stigma of low expectation that’s branded on black men is exhausting and discouraging. What keeps me from hating myself? Knowing what I’m worth in the eyes of the Creator and constantly studying my history.

    This keeps me from conducting myself as the skirt chasing, drug taking, angry black man that society expects me to be. It’s hard, yes. But black men; know that our worth is more than any “precious” jewel.

  8. LeonardNNorfolk on said:

    Sel hatred has been a disease affecting Black peopel for a long time. We are infected with it when we accept hte negative views of our selves from hateful white people and even Blacks who do not fully realize how beautiful they are. Sow hat can we do other than just hope a light will come on in his head and save his sanity.

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